Life Support

Life has not always been super kind to me or to the people I know. And I think that the problem with Christianity is that we present it as something to take away our problems instead of victory through our problems. How can we practically share our faith with others who don’t even believe in a higher power? How can we share our faith without seeming like ignorant fools who live in an entirely different world? Because we all struggle with stuff, no matter how much some people might pretend otherwise. Even if people’s lives seem good, they might have a whole slew of things to deal with unrelated. Or they might be really good at hiding it. Either way, none of us are immune from the struggles life can bring. So to share Christianity as this magical fix to everything is wrong.

It’s not a Bandaid. It’s not surface level. It’s like surgery; painful, long, but worth it. It’s our only hope. It is something we reach for because we realize nothing else in our lives has the power to save us like Jesus can. Nothing else can take the place of our Creator. Christianity isn’t a crutch. It’s actually life support. It’s the only way we can stay alive. It’s our only hope for a life worth living.

It is all about Jesus. Christianity is nothing without the cross and what Jesus did to save us from ourselves. Because He knew no sin and took it all on for us. He knew some of us would refuse Him and some of us would accept Him, but even if you were the only person on earth, regardless of your belief, He would still have done it. Because He wants that choice available to you, to everyone. He tore down any wall of separation and made Himself totally vulnerable and available.

I wish I could say that I always live with that truth at the forefront of my mind. But like I said, the problems of this world take precedence more often than I’d like to admit. I wish that there was an easy answer or an easy fix to all of this. I wonder why God made the answer to suffering so hard to find. But then I realized maybe I’m looking in the wrong place. Maybe God Himself is the answer to all of this. He is the one we can go to for comfort and shelter and dare I say JOY in the middle of anything.

It’s not an easy answer. But He works miracles. We just have to be willing to look.

Trampolines

When we set our minds to accomplish some big project, it’s then that seemingly everything wants to get in the way. Like drawing, for example. It’s hard to find the balance between wanting to practice sketching and also wanting to maintain other responsibilities. Work may get tiring, family and friends take priority, just anything that might get in the way DOES.

What I’ve been learning, though, is that these things aren’t ‘getting in the way’. They are part of the journey. If we start to view whatEVER might get in the way of what we have to accomplish as “inconveniences” we will miss out on important parts of our story that we won’t get back. Our perspective changes when we see that we have a God who is in control and cares about every aspect of our lives. He has given us everything we need in Him.

I can be peaceful in the present and excited for the future, because I know of the love God has for me. I can trust that. The cross promises salvation and the resurrection made that possible.

As I walk toward the little goals that will reach me toward my ultimate goals, I will see setbacks. I will make mistakes. I will experience closed doors, but also incredible victories. Failure doesn’t have the final say anymore. What other people see as failures can be trampolines into the most awesome successes.

So I am excited to post new art work, and also trusting God that He is making art out of my life, too. 🙂

#cheesyright?

Authenticity

I’ve always been interested in using a blog platform to share my thoughts and my art work, but I always make excuses and end up waiting a solid half a year between each post that I do. It’s 2017. It’s time that I just be honest with myself and say I don’t really know what I’m doing. I’ve attempted blogging since 2012. It’s been 5 years. I would love for my blog to be this totally amazing, successful blog with over 6 followers and something that makes people feel like they are a little more understood than they once thought. I want to be a good artist, not someone that looks like a child playing with craft supplies. I want to invest in good supplies and create art that creates feeling.

I’m not in that place right now. But people don’t start powerful journeys from the top of a mountain. They start from the bottom. And I don’t like the bottom of the mountain. I am all for the top of the mountain and the cool things that come from reaching the top of the mountain. But you know, most people don’t really talk about the preparation to get there. Once they are at the top, that’s all that really matters. But the preparation was so necessary. The preparation really made all the difference. And I need to start getting comfortable with the work that goes into building my portfolio and getting good at using WordPress. Because as stated earlier, I really don’t know what I’m doing.

It’s been about 10 months since my last post. I really am sorry for that. It’s been a really good 10 months. I cut back the hours that I work at Shake Shack so I can focus on my school work and once I purchase more art supplies, focus on that too. I am going for a psychology degree and I’m very excited for what is to come of that. I’m uncertain of what will come of it, but I’m just learning to embrace life I guess. I never would have guessed that I would have quit Auntie Anne’s or enjoyed school so much. I expected the opposite, to be honest. God has other plans for me, and I’m excited to see where that takes me. Oh, and Boxer my rabbit is going to be 11 in April which was also very unexpected and has me very excited. 🙂

So all of that to say, I am still here. I am continually discovering my passions and discovering ways to express them. I am discovering new things about myself every day. At least I can say I’m listening for once. 🙂

I will post pictures of new art work very soon.

-Bribri

About the Artist

My name is Brianna. I am turning 19 on May 2nd. I am a high school graduate, pursuing the arts through my college education this fall. I have a full time job in Auntie Anne’s pretzel shop which teaches me a lot about how to deal with people. Art has had an impact on me ever since I was a little girl. I love to try new things with it. But I haven’t been eager in showing my art to others.

I don’t want to be afraid of failure or of any judgement I might receive. I want to show my creations on a platform I can be proud of. I want to make mistakes and grow, and I want family + friends to be apart of my story. I don’t want to isolate myself. I want to be heard. Here is my platform. Here is my portfolio 🙂 Go like my Facebook page for full photo albums.

Self Portrait – 2015

This is my self portrait I completed back in October of 2015. I used vine charcoal as well as compressed charcoal. I used graphite pencil for the outline. It took me approximately 8 hours to complete. I am pleased with the eyes and the nose, which I highlighted in the second photograph. I think the softness of the shading makes the drawing look quite painterly, but the mouth and the chin I am not pleased with. The forehead is also quite large.

These are the things I see when I look at it, but I’ve spent 8+ hours with it. I am learning to understand that sometimes the flaws we see in ourselves are not as unforgiving as we might think. More than anything I want to learn how to live without fear of failure and live with my heart wide open when others fail around me, too- ready to forgive and to continue to love, much like God my Father does to me. I am so thankful for His grace and mercy, and I want to show that to the world when they fail me, and to myself wherever I fail too.

New Picture Coming Soon!

I haven’t posted anything on this page for almost 6 months now! It’s crazy how time flies.

I am not going to post a picture, but I will promise a more active role in my artwork. I haven’t drawn much lately, but I want to. I have the desire, and I believe that is enough to start a new picture! Not necessarily a portrait, but a picture nonetheless. I want to enjoy my artwork, and sometimes messing around with a colorful abstract picture means more to me than a portrait. Depends on the mood, depends on the idea I may have of a drawing, etc.

I hope you all have a lovely Easter weekend as we remember why this Friday is in fact “Good”. 🙂

-Brianna

The Maid with the Flaxen Hair

La Fille Aux Cheveaux De Lin

This is a piece I drew after being inspired from the lovely song, La Fille Aux Cheveux De lin. I played this on the harp and it created an image in my mind. I find expressing yourself through music and through art to be quite similar. This is one of the few times that I (successfully) make an image out of pastels. The link to the song is below!